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Restless...

It's the best word I can come up with to describe how my spirit has been feeling as of late. I've been hitting the gym quite often to help sweat out some of that restlessness. Sweating seems to help in so many ways. But the feeling is still there.

Our family schedule is more full of activities and commitments than it has ever been for the winter months. The restlessness is not from a lack of things to keep me busy. If anything, I'd love a little more downtime than our current schedule allows.

This evening our family made a spur of the moment decision to head into the big city for dinner downtown followed by a stop at a new to us coffee and comics shop. As we walked down the cold city streets, past larger than life graffiti street art from an event held last year, into a space hosting independent art work alive with activity from events being held in the area, for a short bit that internal restlessness was quieted.



I am not a city girl. My heart will always live in the wide…

Darkness...

January is a dark month.

Days are short.The weather is cold. Today was so cold my nose hairs immediately froze on my first breath each time I walked outside to travel to my next destination.
It's safe to say January and I are NOT friends.

This January seems to be proving to be a rougher ride for me emotionally. We've had many cloudy and grey days as of late. Our family schedule is chocked full of activities and commitments. I'm really trying to keep my eyes turned to the light. These past few days the darkness has been winning the battle. It's a reminder that I need to be better about telling those close to me what I need to help keep things light. Asking for help is not one of my strengths.

In October I took advantage of a special deal to rejoin our local gym. I'm thankful that spending 2-3 hours there a week has simply become a habit this winter. Even with the recent set back of shin splints, I know my gym time this winter has been an important part of keeping a m…

Cultivate...

I have lost count of the number of team building, moral boosting, personality testing opportunities I have been asked to participate in by various employers. I've team built in nature. Read about moving cheese. Figured out my personality color. My strengths. My Myers Briggs type. I've been asked to get on the energy bus. To fill people's buckets. How many many others I have forgotten?

Mind you, I'm not totally against all of these various motivational activities as the whole process very much plays into my nerdy side. I will admit, it's hard for me to pass up taking those highly scientific look-at-this-picture-click-the radio-dot-you-most-agree-with personality "tests" found sprinkled around ever corner of the internet like glitter infects your home after 1 tiny sparkly craft project.  I can get as wrapped up in the hype and excitement of it all as much as anyone. Hi, my name is Jennifer and I am a self-help, self-discovery junkie.

While my nerdy side kin…

52 in 2016...

My internal dialog is my constant companion. Constant I tell you.

Very little of that dialog ever escapes my thoughts through spoken word. I often think about sharing some of that dialog here on the blog, but looking back at 2015's posts only 2 discussions ever made it to your digital screen. Four other posts were started, but never finished. A posts about giving less fucks. (Ironically written almost exactly a year ago.) A post about celebrating 20 years of marital union. (Written in the sunny days of summer) A post about my struggles with depression. (Written at the start of fall when I struggle the most keeping my emotions on somewhat of an even keel.) A post about my dear great grandma Mary. (Written just after her passing.)

As I've mentioned before, I'm not a resolution maker. But I've been thinking a lot about just what this little spot's purpose is living out on the world wide web. I have often thought of simply taking this blog down, but each time I do that…