My momma always said, "Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." ~ Forrest Gump
Isn't that the truth. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude about life right now. Some days are easier than others. The return of the sun helps. And the loving support of friends and family near and far.
In general, our life is VERY blessed. We have our health, safety, and LOTS of love. For those things I am thankful. But sometimes it's hard for me to ignore the constant current of stress that runs through our life due to financial strain. Financial stresses affect so many other areas of life. I know it's simply going to take time before that strain lessens. I'm not a violent person, but if I could, I would totally punch financial related stress in the face.
I am looking forward to the day when I can run to the grocery store and not cringe when the cashier gives me the total for my order. For the day when I no longer feel guilty about spending the extra for fresh produce and quality meat products rather than the cheaper, processed alternatives. The day when when I don't have to say "No" so much when the girls ask to participate in an activity at school or a special summer event. For the day when there's something left in our checking account after I cover all of our basic monthly expenses. And the day when I can just enjoy an unexpected Valentine's Day gift from my love without turning into a crabby witch as I try to calculate in my head how much he spent even after I told him the budget really can't support extra expenses right now. I feel bad today for how much I'm sure my response to Scott's thoughtfulness crushed his intention to simply bring a bit of joy into my day.
Thank you honey for thinking of me on one of many days each year that we celebrate our love. Through all the uncertainty of life, I'm glad I get to share my box of chocolates with you each and every day!