I am a Biggest Loser junkie. I'll admit it. Not a lot of TV is "appointment TV" for me, but I eagerly await each episode. First, as a trainer/fitness professional, I love to watch for tips/comparrison/validation. Second, as someone who has always struggled with her weight and body image, I find the journey the participants take to be an extremely motivating and inspirational story. I think if you've ever struggled with your weight, for whatever reason, there's always someone to whom you can relate. I would love to go live on The Biggest Loser campus and let Bob put me through the paces for a week. I feel like even with all my education/knowledge, I have so much to learn about my own struggle with weight and body image. I often feel like an imposter in my job because I struggle modeling what I teach...whether it's stress, or fatigue, or just laziness...I too have a hard time putting it all together. At the same time, it just goes to show, it's not an easy task for anyone...not even a fitness professional!
Each week as they show the update of the voted off participant, I get re-inspired to focus on my own struggle once and for all...13 weeks in a row now. Anyway, after looking through my old year book I've been wondering...would it even be POSSIBLE to weigh what I did in high school? Not that, that has been my goal, but don't you always wonder in the back of your mind? (Fess up ladies, you know it's true.)
So today I did the math. At my current weight, 40 pounds heaver than my average weight my senior year, I have approximately 15 pounds MORE lean body weight than back then! (Luckily we did body fat measurements once in gym and for some reason I remember mine!) So, in order to weigh what I did in high school, I'd have to:
A) either lose a rediculous amount of body fat, putting me BELOW the healthy range
B) lose lean body mass in addition to body fat
Being as I'm pretty darn proud of how strong my body is these days, I'm not ok with either of those options. Perspective.
The journey for me continues. I'm glad that even though I continue to struggle with the scale (low rise jeans, swimsuits, and slim fit dresses) I have found the confidence to love and care for my body at whatever size and to appreciate all that it has given me over the years. That in itself is worth so much more than fitting into a size 6...or 8...or 10....or...